I feel like there’s a relationship in my life that’s currently on the rocks. I recognize the feelings all too well, having had some of them a few years ago.
I read online that they’ve found that being forced into a breakup from a brand of product you like is like having a romantic breakup. I can honestly say that I’m feeling similar with Apple as I felt with Caradoc. Because, on a certain level, Apple is not the corporate I thought I was ‘in love’ with.
To explain, my regular, drab, five days a week job is as a graphic designer in the printing industry. When I learned some of the skills of the trade, back in the early 90s, Apple had made serious inroads into the industry’s embrace of computer aided design work. We had Aldus Pagemaker, and SuperPaint, and all of it ran on Apple’s Macintosh computers. So, I’ve been dealing with Macintosh computers on one level or another, professionally by need and personally by choice, for a period of twenty years overall. I’ve always been willing to spend my money on Apple’s products. I’ve felt comfortable with the products.
Then, I found out that Apple allowed an app called Peek a Boo Tranny to hit the App Store for iOS devices. I got upset, very upset, to the point that I called their customer line to complain. They have pulled the app from their store.
But… I feel rather a bit like I did when I found out I was the ‘other person’. There is a sense of betrayal like what you might get when you’ve found out your partner has developed a hidden drug habit. There’s a definite sense of “I don’t know you any more” involved here. My trust has been quite broken by the one incident. Honestly, if there wasn’t the whole ‘walled garden’ with their store, I probably would have blown it off, but it is put forward as a walled garden, and there’s definite proof that it, well, really is more like a poorly maintained hedge around the garden.
Right now, I’m contemplating a ‘move out’. I have a Windows XP machine here, that I obstensibly use for the one or two things I canNOT do on my Macintosh Mini, and I’ve already downloaded a few of the programs that I have ‘dual’ licenses for to install them on it and begin moving my day to day stuff over to it. This is probably going to start happening sometime this month. I’d been toying with the idea of buying a used MacBook next year or year after, and now I’m not really sure I’m not going to buy a Windows laptop instead.
A part of me doesn’t want to do that. A part of me wants to give Apple ‘one more chance’. But, given in part what happened the last time I gave someone ‘one more chance’ when my trust was violated… I need to just make the effort to live without for a while, and revisit it once the feelings have had a chance to cool off.